Day 2 it is raining and cold outside pretty miserable.  I got lots to do.  I need to remember to get my stuff from mom's car.  Need to make appointment with David.  I hope mom will be okay, but yesterday was pretty stressful coming back from the doctor.  She is helpless, but I only have so much to give.  I have to judge what can be acceptable for her situation vs. what must be done for her physical well-being.  Life being harder doesn't equate with less well-being.  That's a distinction I have to keep in mind.  Her happiness can only come from doing things for her physical strength and mental and emotional being which means getting out of her room as much as she can.  I need to say that every time I see her.  Ah, c'est la vie.  Life goes on no matter what.  In the long run, everything will be okay. Long after we are dead and buried there will be new generations following in their own lives without worry for our well-being.  We live on in their beings.  They are what they are because we existed and they are begotten from us.  Amen to all the universe, life and to who and what we are.  We are manifestations of what the universe is. Because of the nature of the particles and energies of the universe, we have come into existence and we are what we are in the way we are because of the nature of the universe and its fabric and building blocks.  Amen.  Thank you Lord for my existence and the experiences I have in that existence.  Existence is about experiencing feelings and not about being right or wrong.  We move along and engage our life paths according to how it makes us feel.  Compassion and love for others brings us feelings of being in union and harmony with the universe.  And compassion and love for ourselves as well accepting who and how we are.  We are all fine and find more peace and happiness understanding who we are and accepting who we are. The biggest strifes come from being unwilling to accept the universe as it is, and the biggest of all is being unwilling to accept ourselves as we are and wanting to insist to ourselves that we should or are supposed to be different from what we are. (396)