Another day of life. Continuing the glorious existence of emotions and feelings. Thank you Lord for the gift. It's a wet raining dreary day. Perfect for going swimming. I'm so pleased I have a concrete plan for training and exercise for the coming year. It will be okay to be flexible and allow me to be free with what I want to do. The main thing is to keep up with increasing my swim/bike/run distances. The most important is the run since I have the BRF marathon as my A race goal. The others are just to put be in good position for 3 half iron mans in 2020.  That is flexible and fine to not meet the goals but I still want to try my best to get there. 1.5M/60M/30M by the marathon race. Mom is doing pretty good. Maybe I can spend more time since I'm getting my exercise in first. Then, no matter what time I leave, I'll still be able to go run more errands instead of being hot and sweaty and tired at home and not really feeling like going out again. Then, tomorrow, a short brick and 7 miles on Sunday! Yeah! That will be good. I'm starting a new adjusted 3 week cycle that puts the medium work outs half way between the long workouts.  That'll be better. Yeah. Thank you Lord, thank you for my health. The exercise is good for my body and mind. And my mediation and writing are good for my spirit and soul. Thank you for the elation of it all that is in the center of my being. Thank you for helping me to slow peel of layers between my consciousness and the center. I like the blame quote, if I'm blaming others, then I'm not on the path, if I blame my self I am on the path, if I blame no one, then I have arrived or something like that. And that was found on the heels of deciding for my 2019 prayer to be about non-judgement. That is where I want to be.  Thank you Lord for me seeing wisdom and for me wisdom really means being my authentic self and understanding my personal relationship with the universe the relationship of the center of my soul and consciousness and not the knowledge I have been taught about what that relationship is or should be or is supposed to be.  Thank you Lord for freedom and peace and love and kindness and compassion and seeing that in everyone's souls beneath what they have developed out of necessity to survive suffering that has been imposed upon them and the model of the universe that has been imposed upon them even as much as it may be in conflict with their inner being. (466)