Another day. The last vacation day and one holiday left. Back to work on Wednesday. I need to call Goddard today though about my appointment and need to call USAT for my password so I can renew. Ugh. It's a pain in the ass that the password reset email never gets to me. I'm getting other emails, so I do not know what the problem is.  I need to ask what can be done to fix it.  Sigh, c'est la vie.  I'll get to it today. I also need to try and get mom's car inspected.  Another pain in the as. I don't think I asked Mary just last week. It wasn't a month ago like I claimed. It was at least before my vacation so I could do it during vacation. Sigh. Oh, well. c'est la vie.  Choo choo cha cha it's a big life in the universe each of us has. In fact for each of us our own lives are the biggest thing in the universe. It all impacts us and we just take it all in and respond as best we can to get reciprocation that is most to our own liking and satisfaction. We are all selfish. We just are actions to get the outcome we desire. Even if that outcome is more for the well-being of others and we sacrifice our own well-being and happiness and comfort, that just means want is more for the well-being of others so our actions are for what we desire, what ourself desires, hence it is selfish. Wa-la!  Yeah, team. We are all selfish. It just depends on what are selfish selves want that categorizes whether we are deemed good or not.  It's all perspective and perception. The line is between are our selfish ends serving others more or serving ourselves more.  Maybe the right term is self-serving and not selfish. But, you can still say self-serving is serving for the ends that we want. Yeah, it's all selfish. Does it make me happier to make you happy or to feed my emotions directly. Eating chocolate, thrill down a coaster, easing my own burden. Ooh, that's a thought. Is it about easing burden? And, what does that mean? Instead of me having a $100 dollar meal, I give $10 meals to 9 other people. So, I'm not sure off the top of my head what is the terms here. It's means my dining experience is $90 less, but I've given $10 experiences to 9 other people. So, I have experiences that are lower on a standard, but I give experiences to other people.  That helps and will ruminate more. Amen. (442)