Another day.  A snowy day.  Gotta rearrange my exercise schedule.  Maybe due just trainer, no brick and do swimming tomorrow.  May end up doing swimming 2 days in a row.  Ah, well, c'est la vie.  That is fine.  That is the path of least resistance to the universe.  Amen.  I am going on and in a good place on my path right now.  Mom has gone a week and it's a better week here in Maryland than she had in Austin.  I hope things will go well.  She sounds pretty good this morning when I called about caregiver having an accident and wouldn't be there.  We'll see how it goes.  Life goes on and on and on in a merry-go-round. It flashes it dances it mumbles it fumbles mumbling and fumbling and Horace goes on.  Life is a merry-go-round and we are all on it together going round and round in the circle of life never seeing the end and never seeing the beginning always believing that things are how they have always been or knowing that it is impossible to really know how things really worry and never able to know how it will be in the days to come.  The here-and-now is all we really know and all we really know is what is within us.  It is an illusion on the outside.  The here is really only what we perceive in our minds.  All else is interpretation of the stimuli we receive from our senses and the deductions we make with our own brains.  Tra-la-la-la-la.  Yoko on a Double Fantasy track.  Thank you lord for life and the liberty of our minds.  May we all have minds that are free to peer into our own souls and understand who we really are on the inside despite the masks we have to hide our true selves even hide from ourselves being what we think we should be or think what we want to be.  I can't even project what I see for myself to others.  I can imagine we are similar.  In my heart in my soul is a spirit, flame of love instilled at the time and place of my creation.  It is a yearning for belong with others.  We have a tendency to yearn for others who think like us.  But, I believe we are all valuable and I want to believe (so yes that is a dangerous view) we are all the same in having love at the centers of our being and that all other yearning is the result of trying to protect ourselves from the outside, trying to cope with that on the outside which causes us strife and harm.  We hide from ourselves and hide ourselves from others.  To lay open our souls is to become vulnerable to scorn.  It's not so much that we know we'll have scorn.  It's just we play it safe by trying to follow steps we believe will be accepted and immune from scorn.  It is fear of scorn, fear of rejection that we put up masks that we believe we know are acceptable to others. Amen. (520)