Off for a couple of days.  Stress, stress, stress.  I seem to be able to do my disciplines better when I'm already relaxed and not stressed. When stress comes along, I falter.  That shouldn't be something to judge myself about.  I will be happier and have left stress if I accept it or a come up with a plan and or strategy and be objective and mindful about changing the situation.  For now it is better to accept it and be okay.  I know that the pendulum will always swing and I will come out of the period of stress and come back to my disciplines.  The more I can accept that the more that I will be able to maintain my discipline through the harder times.  Amen, Lord.  Thank you for giving me the calm and mindfulness to be able to think about it and discern on calm place to be with the way I am. Amen, Amen, Amen. Thank you for the love you instilled within my soul from the moment of and part of the creation of who I am.  May I always have active awareness of the love within my soul and know that everything I do and all my decisions and the way I am are fine.  May I be able to see into my soul to allow the love within to guide me.  And be able to be calm and accept when I am not able to do that. When I am not able to do that I, that is okay and I expect I cannot or will not be able to see it because I am not in a mindful place.  Let me pull-cord be mindfulness and may I be able to find mindfulness when I am not allowing myself to be guided by the love within me.  May I be able to recognize it and may I not be unhappy with myself when I do recognize it and am not able to be guided by the love within me.  That is okay.  It will come.  If I can go to mindfulness, I can think about the situation and look at what is driving me and accept that what is driving me is okay.  I think the goal is just to find awareness of what that is.  Then that gives me control, maybe, but it lets me understand the situation and I can decide how to handle it.  Mindfulness.  Keep Calm and Be Mindful.  Keep Calm and Finish.  My life mottos.  Keep calm about all else.  If I find myself not calm, then it may take a bit of retreat to find it.  Then, look to be mindful. Observe and reason about where I am and what the situation is. (457)