Another day. A few days off. Been busy and not feeling well and staying up late. Taking care of mom has been stressful and my discipline is not good when I'm stressed. I've been missing my exercising too. My weight is up. My overnight sleep helped my motivation last night however. I think partially the discussion of my weight with Dr. Berger. I have an awful headache and I'm kind of amazed that I'm not just giving up the ghost for right now with it. I want to do something about my health and get it back on track. Yeah! Good snacks is on my plan and I need to go look for a recipe to try out for a couple of nights for dinner and see what's in the fridge good for lunches. I know there is some soup. Thank you Lord for the motivation and may I get myself going again. However, it's not a may I, it's an I will  get it back on track. I was glad to hear that Mary says she's losing weight. That is great. Her mouth guard last night seemed to help a lot with her snoring. The way I felt emotionally and mentally last night I was really frustrated trying to get her into the optimal position. I wasn't sure I got her there and I usually do that before telling her to put in her mouth guard. But, I was frustrated I went there sooner than I normally do. Thanks, Lord. Allah, Kum Bya. And, on I go with life. Get my health in better shape and I'll do better with mom. It was good seeing her decorations there. Thank you Lord for all I have for love for Mary for Jeremiah for Mom for all my family and friends. I'm losing steam in my mind here. I think I want to go and be doing things. That is all right. Work on my discipline. I'm doing good this morning and it is a good sign. The pendulum swings back and forth and I am on an up swing. It will come back down but it is good to have the upswing be stretched out more than the down swing. Yeah. I'm looking forward to getting to work. There was ticket to be filed and I don't quite remember what it was. If I keep writing with it in the back of my mind, then oh, yeah, fits count for various data sets for invokeSDP.tcsh.   Wow, I seem to have a lot of words and still a couple of minutes left. I guess I broke my rule, but that's okay. It's not a rule that has consequences. I just shouldn't make it a habit. Pleasure and desire. They can rule us.  Ah, it's not that desire is bad, it is being attached to our desires. We can let them come and go but becoming attached let's them rule our motivations and hence our values and hence our decisions and take us away from what we truly desire. Boy, that's a paradox. What is it I truly desire? Peace and harmony among us all. (523)