Another day. It is dark outside. Up "bright" and early today. Mom has a GI appointment. Not much will happen other than introductions. I need to get POA and history together and pick up paper work from Brookdale. Also need to make sure mom gets up early on Wednesday for heart procedure and hold diuretics. Need to send email to Isabel. No, wait. Heart procedure is next week, not this week. Oh, good. No rush on that. Whew! Good day taking mom out yesterday, Mary and I. My back is not great. No long core today and no workouts and see how it goes. I was glad for swim yesterday. The Sunday workouts are the priority to get in. That is where the real progress is though speed work is in the week day workouts. But, the priority is distance. I need to look at the upcoming weather. Life goes on, it is continual music we dance to to make a our goals find our happiness. My soul feels impatient. I want to move on from this writing time to the next things. My stomach gets to feeling something, I'm not sure what it is. It's not nausea, not knotted or cramping though it feels like, well, I don't know. It feels like something that is uncomfortable that I want to make go away. Not a pressure, just an unpleasant sensation. O Lord, I really want to know what it is more than I want it to go away but make no mistake that I want it to go away, fly away forever never to comeback like I want all my sufferings to do. But, they fly away and fly back, a constant change back and forth all day long for all the days in my life. I feel tight in my soul with the way my back is I want it to relax and go away fly away and be on its way to the other end of the heaven's the other end of the universe where all our cares and woes go at the end of the day. Last night I invoked focusing on the images behind my eyelids which I haven't done in a long time and lo and behold, I slept soundly and don't remember much if anything at all before waking up just after five. So, got 7 hours of solid sleep. That was good. I should check my watch for fun to see how I did. I need to employ the image focusing every night like I used to. I think it really helps me to sleep. Amen O, Lord it feels like the end is coming, very soon based on the number of words I see. (453)