Thank you Lord for another day. Dark outside still. First good start to a day in a while. I got 7 hours sleep for the first time in awhile. We'll see if we can make it 8.  I got in meditation and here I am writing. Mom is not doing so good. Overall, she is weak and her memory and outlook are bad. I'll do what I can. I have to not stress myself over her happiness and her having exactly what she wants. She'll suffer and there's nothing I can do about it.  It's diminishing returns and I'll drive myself down and make it worse for her. So, I'll go on best I can and put her health at the top. Oh, well, c'est la vie. It's not giving up, I think I've not accomplished anything over the past year and a half in terms of her happiness. She clings to ideals and looks at the world through black colored glasses.  c'est la vie. I'll do the best, but she'll suffer and that's how it is. It's going to snow on Saturday. I need to figure out my exercise schedule. Maybe cluster a couple of bikes with no runs on the snow day. Or cluster swims around it and do extra runs. Bike on the bad day and swim around it. I could bike and elliptical. Yeah, that's cool to do if I need to for brick's. That's sort of a plan. And, move forward we will. Bitter cold and can get to the gym, but there's not much I can do about snow. We'll see, it'll be fine and I'll move forward. Thank you Lord Thank you Jesus and life moves forward, just be mindful and move forward and finish. Amen. Thank you Lord. And today and tomorrow will be full days at work. Yeah! Get somethings accomplished. Get some work done. And life will move forward. I want to keep Deb's post in the back of my mind. I'll never benefit or see the results of things I sow. My response was a little off from that. What I sow to make me happy gives happiness to others that I may never see. Thank you Lord for life, for love, for Mary, for Jeremiah (and Sadie) and mom and for everyone that comes through my life that touches me that I touch. May we all see the path of happiness is to help forge happiness for one another. We are created to find happiness through love for one another.  Amen.  My thoughts are pleasure is good but like anything else it is dangerous to depend on pleasures, to cling to them. It can be a path to total self-absorption contrary to the path of happiness for one another. (461)