Hi Lord another day of words. Gray outside gray inside the soul is gray dawn will come up in the sky down in the ground everywhere is dawn of the day dawn of the soul dawn of Mary and I everyday is a new day bring new hopes new sorrows completely unique times and new experiences with birds chirping and sigh and puking and regurgitating and puking and flying and experiencing the universe and flowing up and high and down and low as we all do in this existence in the rain in the snow in the plaster the blaster master caster bater and Vader and unique seder in the spring passing over our lives and bringing us together as one and all and all for one in the Dumas tales and the spring wales and gales and bales and whales and the males and mail and women and children and beasts and gator waiters in spring bringing brine and wine and dine and dances and dames and wames and games and silly love songs and silly existence where nothing really matter and everything matters to the deepest cores of our being for our existence is all we are and nothing else matters are feelings is who we are and the essence of our being and all external things are nothing but fluff and coming to terms and being mindful of who we are and what we feel is the only way to be free of the bindings that come with attaching to our realities as true and gospel and realizing that all we are is within us and how we just to react to what our senses bring us and the patterns we deduce within our minds and we can control and decide how to react to our feelings. We may not be able to control what our feelings are in the moment they arise but we can decide how we will respond to those feelings to make the best for our well-being and for our own interests and to follow our true values that reside within us and part of the trick is really know what our values are within us for if we do not truly know what they are then we cannot choose paths that align with them and if we choose paths that do not align then we will have conflict and suffering. To choose to follow our values is the greatest means of happiness. What do you value and do you follow it? It is not bad for others for you to be a hypocrite. It is bad for you. I take you as you are and love you as you are whether you are a hypocrite or not. It is sad for you to be a hypocrite as it is sad for me to be a hypocrite. Hypocrisy is a disease not something to be judged for. Wow, that is an interesting concept. Hypocrisy is not something to be judged for, it is a disease. It is when we act in contrariness to our inner values. Amen, Lord. Life is good and we are good, you are good there is goodness within all of us. We lose track and and sight of what the good path is in order to protect ourselves. Amen. (550)

Oh, Lord, thank you for life again. It's been a while since  I've been here. It's grey and cloudy outside to the max and to the min we begin life in earnest to survive to the best of our ability day in and day out until the end of our days and the beginning of the next. Life is funny life is challenging around and around we go 'til the end of our days and on and on and Steven Bishop and thank you for putting us here with life in our souls and love that flows out until it gets chocked of by one another stifling who we who we want to be putting before a vision of falsehood on what someone things the way the universe should be when in fact the universe is however it wants to be and it is not for us to judge that to judge the way it is.  It just is and we will find the greatest peace and happiness in seeking and finding just how the universe is. It is not an acquiescence, it is a realization of reality and we can change and guide our paths and the paths of life around us and it is a challenge to realize what rides on top of the universe that we can change and guide and to realize what is fundamental in the universe that is its nature that is its way to be. And I go on and digress and follow a guided path instead of letting it flow and be and come from my head and my mind and pain and office and windows and toes and computers and flames before me and wonderment and joy in all that is and in gratitude for being created with a soul of love as we are all so created in love and in hate and in abeyance and in wonderment and beauty and in love and peace and solitary and in crowded and in being bewitched and in knowledge and love an caressing and sex yes sex and closeness and oneness and beer yetch and in wine and rum and slowness and speed and wonderment and computers and phones and flames and all the way to the bank and all the way to the gutter and snipes scouts and love and peace and lamps and books and knowledge and sharing who we are. Thank you all for being in the fabric of my life it is juicy it is wonderful and I am glad to be here. It is all a circle and there are squares with disjoint paths and there are smooth lines that carry us through change we don't even see. Thank you Lord for the peace of the love in my soul and my we connect our love and create great realms of beauty and clarinets and Ken and peace and Steph Heather Amanda Gene Ken and all the rest Joe, Matt, Ron and Sue and the guys in the back and the whole band a place to express for my soul to let it soar and be go and come and stay and fly ever higher into the peace and joy and love you wish for us to have. Amen lord and the end is coming and not here yet and I cheated but that is okay. All life is okay. For me the only sin is hurting others and all else is okay. There is no way there is should to be. Amen. (586)

Thank you, Lord, for another new day, a day full of promise, a day with an evening run with more in 2nd gear. It is still dark as pitch in the morning at this time. I am looking forward to a bright morning to exercise every day.  Thank you Lord for life and love and family, Mary, Jeremiah, Sadie, Mom, Dad. Amen, O, Lord. The candle is burning, the flame is flaming it is all as it should be. May I find myself in concordance with the universe. That is the peace and calm and joy and ecstasy you wish us to be in. Thank you Lord for our creation. Amen, Amen, Amen. It is all as it should be. May we come together to face the challenges before us to bring happiness and peace among us all. Amen, Amen, Amen. The flame is flickering and my mind is going may it flow more freely in these words and never stop humming with the universe and never stop humming with one another. May we all hum together and find peace in one another. May we educate our children may we educate one another to see the peace in one another's hearts. May we be able to look past our pains of the past and see the love buried in all our hearts. May we let go of the lessons of our past of the blind faith in those lessons and decide for ourselves what is the truth of our true hearts.  Thank you Lord for our ability to discern the universe as unique individuals as unique manifestations of the universe. May we go on living with the humility of child and the wisdom of an adult. May we find joy in who we are and not seek joy in who we think others believe we should be. Should is an evil word. We have tendencies to live with how we think the universe should be and with how the universe truly is. We blind ourselves from allowing the universe to be. Thank you Lord for wisdom and light and truth and love and obedience???? obedience just came out. Obedience to the will of love to the truth you want us to live. Obedience to our inner selves. Obedience to the love that resides at the core of our being. Amen O Lord for truth and just and the American way of believing we are all equal and deserving of equal rights and equal opportunity. Thank you Lord for peace in our hearts. It is chilling to see the love in others overshadowed by the ways of coping for survival that has been imprinted on top of our hearts and blocking the love with in.  Amen. (455)

Good morning, Lord. It is a brand new day. A later start on the weekend and some sunrise coming up. Thank you for the day, thank you for life and love and the liberty I am fortunate to have and for Mary and the gift of love that comes with our creation and for Jeremiah and Sadie and mom and dad.  Thank you for all of it. Life is good and thank you for my meditation and mindfulness. May I find happiness in my life and my love for others. Help my love to become less perfect and may I help instill happiness in others. That is not the same as bring them joy. It is to show kindness and compassion through which they may feel more self-value and being appreciated and value from me. Amen, Lord. That is the bringing of happiness. Happiness is to feel belonging in the universe. Happiness is to feel as if things are not contrary to what they are supposed to be. In reality, there is now way that things are supposed to be. We are here to experience oneness with the universe. Life is all about feelings and if anything is supposed to be any way, then it is to have the feeling of happiness, the feeling as all is as it should be.  Thank you Lord for peace the peace the comes with happiness, calm. Not contentment. One must be careful not to confuse it with acquiesence. Thank you Lord for peace of mind for calmness of mind. May I be mindful, may I move forward, may I finish. Amen. Amen. Amen. It is all good. Thank you for teaching me love for helping me to know that love is the purpose that love is the word. I have come to know that life is all about feelings and not about being right. Righteousness is evil. Love is holy. That is it. Righteousness breed contempt, hatred, conflict and judgement. Love breeds peace, compassion, kindness, happiness. Thank you Lord for your lessons, Amen. Amen. Amen. Calm and peace, thank you Lord. Thank you for Jeremiah. I am looking forward to spending time with Jeremiah and Sadie. Thank you for life and love and beauty and wonderment and the experience of existing in this universe. Amen. Amen. Amen. All is good all is bad all is wonder all is mundane all is everything. Amen and thank you for Mary the love of my life. The feelings I experience are wonderful with her. It is home, where I belong. We are for each other and it is blessed to have one another. Amen. (438)

Today, another day, still dark outside in the morning. The daylight will come earlier and earlier. I think after this week, I'll change the medium days to Wednesdays and have short days on Thursdays and have 2 day rests after long workouts. So, lB, mR, sB, lS, lR, mB, sR, lS.  That'll be good for my schedule too I think. I need to up date my schedules and calendars.  Yippee!  Then I just gotta take care of my plantar faciatis. Not spelled right, but doesn't matter here. I know what I mean and that is the only concern. There is no right or wrong, just better or worse. There is no absolute about language, it's about conveying ideas, and if that is accomplished, then then all is good. Of course you can compromise the effectiveness by crossing against convention.  That's all it is is convention. You can be more clear and effective by following the convention. That's really all grammar rules are and vocabulary is. It is all okay, it is all fine. Everything is fine. The challenge is discerning what things that are different from mine that cause harmful consequences. I love you and what you are. The only thing, absolute thing, I don't like, and it isn't even really absolute is to intend no harm. I have to think more about causing unintentional harm by being negligent.  And what does negligent mean. To not be negligent means to pro-actively be mindful of unintended harmful consequences. That is important. That boils down to how much we value the well-being of others. So, bad to have intentions of harmful consequences and to disregard the well-being of others. I think for a happy society, every member should never have intentions to cause harm and to have regard for the well-being of others.  Amen. (302)

Another day, still dark at this time.  I've decided not to swim twice a week, but to run and bike 1 1/2 times a week and swim once. Long Bike-Short Run-Medium Bike-Long Swim / Long Run-Short Bike-Medium-Long Swim run. That will be better. I'll get more bank for the buck that way. I don't think the drills will improve my performance in the swimming more than the training for biking and running will help me go further.  That's that and it will be good.  Yeah.  Except I can't go running now. I'll have to do that in the afternoon since it's dark now. It will be warmer anyway and that will be good. Life is good. Life marches on. Mom and dad are at rest and rid of their suffering. I think dad's worse suffering was the headaches and everything else was just frustration in being less able to do things and being less independent which is a state of mind. It was a sense of suffering, but something that could be overcome but he wasn't able to. Hopefully, my spirituality will enable me and give me tools to cope with it. Easier to let go of things. Amen. There is a cat out there I think that is unhappy or some sick animal. I hope if it's a cat that the owner will get. I hope they don't treat it as an outdoor cat if it can't handle the cold. If it's a sick wild animal I hope it gets better or passes in peace and that it doesn't hurt anyone. Life goes on and it is starting to get a semblance of stability and approaching a new normal. That is good and I can move more towards a more loving life helping others. I want to be active in social justice politics at least sending letters to government officials and taking part in marches and such. My todo list is getting more manageable and also there's that State Farm volunteer page. I hope it's still there, but that my mom talking. Go with, yes, it's there and I will find activities to help others. If it turns out it's not there, then I'll find another path. But, having doubt will not help me. I have fear of failure because things won't turn out like I expect or want, but that is okay. I am smart and strong and get handle the unexpected. It will all turn out fine even if I don't see where it will end up. There is not absolute way things are supposed to turn out. That is part of the beauty and the wonder of the universe. It all turns out like an amazing creative journey and experience. Thank you Lord for the experience and may we all find the love in our creation to share and experience that brings joy to one another. Amen. (481)

Today is a new day with day light stolen from me with daylight saving time. Oh, well, c'est la vie. It will be all good.  I will find a way to get in my work outs and I will strengthen regardless. Yesterday's brick was fantastic. I did the 27 miles just fine and the hills just fine. Maybe I should do double on Piney Grove. When the distance gets longer I could do it at the beginning at the end. I could do it twice now if I don't loop through Byerly but just go straight down Pleasant Grove. That's a possibility. I don't know how far it is to go down Piney Grove from Old Hanover. We'll see in 2 weeks. Thursday I will squeeze in Piney Grove into a bit over 30K.  It will be good. I feel good about the upcoming season. April through May into June is going to be fun. But, in a way that's good to have the what I'm doing there then so the rest of the way through the season is concentrating on all running with the couple of Olympics spread out. I should go look at the Savageman route and see how it compares to Piney Grove. It might necessitate doing repeats on Piney Grove. We'll see. Part of it will be gauging the "badness" of not being able to make it up the Savageman hill. We'll see. It sounds like if it's a killer for the strong people I won't have a chance, but you never know. It's all an adventure to keep me fit and have fun getting outside to do things. Amen. Thank you Lord for love life and the pursuit of happiness. It is a tragedy that people are put into life circumstances where they have little opportunity to pursue happiness. That is a lot of what compassion is. I should start back on my Facebook sharing of what I believe. Amen to all people on the planet, everyone of them regardless of who they are and what they do. I believe they do what they see is in their own best interest, all of us do, every single one of us.  Some make decisions and follow actions that are destructive to others, some seek opportunities of happiness for everyone, some see primarily actions that are direct for their well being. I see happiness for all. I see well-being for all. I may not do it well, I may be hypocritical in my words and actions. I may even be blind to my own hypocrisy. Amen. (429)