Today another day, still dark outside at this time almost 6. Need to reset the thermostat time. It was cold this morning when my alarm went off bells ringing children singing it's the hap-happiest time of the year and snow is falling and rising and the sun is on it's way to the neverlands and back again 'til the end of time and all is mushy and gushy and wonderfully bushy and beautiful as a bright eyed tail and Mary is wonderful and we are wonderful together forever from the beginning until the end of time and we are beautiful and life is wonderful and thank you Lord for our relationship and life together and finding one another. We are good for each other and good together and we got a budget and life is going on and we'll get the finances in order and planned and on we go to the end of time. Thank you Lord for all is good and we need just see the love within ourselves that was part of the us you created. We find was is and guide our paths through what is that is what we do to find happiness. We are together and we are loved and we are love and love is the word and that is wonderful and we accept one another and guide ourselves for our happiness and one another's happiness. A path of harm of others is not a path of happiness. Trying to steal the happiness from another does not bring happiness to oneself. It may bring moments of pleasure but it is pleasure that divides us all and ultimately brings down happiness and creates suffering for all including our own self. Amen Lord to the gift of love for which you created us and on and on my brain is going and the thoughts come some guided some random and it is all glory and it is all sadness all happiness all suffering it is everything and it is nothing there are two sides to everything or more nothing is nothing everything is everything nothing is everything everything is nothing nothing and everything exist only in relationship  nothing and everything nothing and everything have meaning only in relationship to nothing and everything. Relationship is the foundation of existence and meaning. Our feelings are only in reactions to the universe around us even reaction to no universe around us bringing loneliness. Amen because it is really a reaction to the contrast been a universe being around and a universe not being around us, it is a relative perception that brings the feeling of loneliness. If we never new a universe around us then the absence of a universe would not bring loneliness, but from existing from the beginning in our mother's women, we have never known existence without the presence of another. (476)