Go. The sun is up bright and shining. It's coming up earlier and earlier. Can't way for it to get warmer early to go outside. Thank you Lord for the outside for the bugs and Junes and Julys? Okay. That's weird and Deb is going to Norleans. It puts bug in me. Couldn't do cats and not this? Frustrating I guess. I don't want to be a slave to her schedule and I have some anxiety going by myself. And some in me worries about her being disappointed. But, she is a big girl and she knows it too. It'll all be fine for me to go. I see if I can get Mary to go with me. She didn't say no or necessarily seem adverse to it. Now, don't analyze and just go with the thoughts and bugs and Junes and cunts and sweats and big tits and my mind going with no filter is what it should do and I shouldn't be judgemental about my self. All is fine and what really matters is how I impact the world around me the people I touch and that is okay. Just like my rule of doing something wrong 15 times before getting it right, I can have 15 thoughts before getting to one that is acceptable to act on.  All thoughts are fine and acceptable. It is the actions that result from them thought are subject to judgement. Thank you Lord for out minds and our bodies and our religions? Well maybe. Again it's not the thoughts that count, but the actions the result from them. Amen.