Thank you Lord for a beautiful life. May I find new vigor, restore my own vigor. Make my exercising, training a priority and losing weight. Make a plan of 4-5 days of exercise with biking and running, and get 300 calories burned everyday. Thank for my reasoning, thank you for Mary and thank you for live and love and the blessing of liberty that I have. Thank you for joy and thank you for my perspective on the universe and help me to make it strong and make it mine and make it who I am. Add surety to my life of who I am and what the universe is for me. Thank you for love and sex and cunts and cocks and joy and sorrow and being and loving and living and dying and rising and sharing and desiring and loving and thank you for the passion and may I have passion about what is important to me. My anxieties must be about something that pushes me to protect myself to protect something I think inside is important that really doesn't matter. So little matters. Do I need to find that which is important so I can let go of it. Can we find something, go on a journey? I think I was able to ignore it for some years but now there is fear and that is making me regress. Maybe counseling would be good. I don't know yet. Thank you Lord for my life I am glad to be here. There is some feeling of drudgery about it but I can try to release it all. Everything is okay. Everything will be okay. There is nothing of too import, but the universe will go on as it is because that is the way it is the way you made it. Thank you Lord for pause and push and play and stop and record and rewind and fast forward. Amen.