Another beautiful day today.  It is thanksgiving and mom is anxious about things. I hope it's not a UTI. We'll see.  I'm doing the best I can for her.  I know it does not give her all she wants and that having not what she wants drives her anxiety. But, I am doing the best I can. Amen. c'est la vie.  I have Mary who supports me and loves me and I love her. That is wonderful and beautiful. It is gracious and part of the fabric of the universe, the non-judgment and the sharing and living in relationship to and with one another. Amen. Thank you Lord for the flames and the light, the beauty and the ugly. Life is calm, it is calm for me. Maybe others live on the adrenaline rush and find happiness is a roaring river of life. I cannot really judge what are the criteria for happiness for anyone else.  I can only discern within and decide what is happiness for me. It is find calm and peace and harmony with the universe. Thank you Lord for the gifts of love and existing in relationship with all that is around me. I do not exist for anyone else except in relationship to the other things in their lives. It's sort of a paradox, though not really, that if one thing exists then, it doesn't really exist because there is nothing against which to reference it. But, then there is an infinitum of things that do physically exist. There meaning and significance, however, does not exist except in relationship to one another.  What I mean to you comes from my relationship to other things in you life. Amen, Amen, Amen. Thank you Lord for the gift of love. May I be able to see the love within me and let it flow through my behavior to those around me, all those I encounter. Amen, Amen. Thank you Lord for the gift of those in my life. Mary, Jeremiah, mom, dad, Della, Pancho, John, Deb, Melissa, Tom, Alice. Thank you for all the experiences of life, the feelings, the emotions that make up the experience, for they are what it is all about.  Live for the feelings and emotions, however, behave mindfully and be aware of what is happening and why and of the consequences of my behavior.  Thank you Lord for my mind, the means I have for being empowered to make decisions for myself that fit with my own spirit enabling me to be independent and of myself apart from those who have taught me. There is no obligation to be what they thing I should be, but I take what they have taught me and make it my own. Amen. (457)