Thank you Lord for life and liberty and love and happiness today of all days and every day until the end of my life the end of my existence in love and happiness and in darkness in the universe until the end of time and all is subservient to the will of the gods and your will as it is until the end of time and mercy and love and hate and joy and lounging and being and sinking and feeling and loving and floating in the abyss of time and space all illusion in our minds and thinking and feeling and floating and sinking in darkness alone and by ourselves with black all around with a source of light beaming in brightness illuminating all the is not illuminating the non-existence of everything in the universes like a lamp of interrogation but not interrogation just being and floating and existing like a child of unlimited ignorance of nothing that is to be known and everything just being like cocks and cunts and obsessions and creating our own universes make creating things out of what we perceive of the nothingness of the universe and nothingness of our relationships which are the essence of existence. Without relationships there would be nothing and all would be the void it is and it would be silence peace and harmony and joy and ecstasy. Thank you Lord for the void in which we make are lives and create our universes. A blank canvas on which to create our existences as reflections of the essence of the universe. Thank you Lord for the canvas of love and may we paint on it who we are our unique manifestations of the essence of the universe. Amen.

Thank you Lord for a beautiful life. May I find new vigor, restore my own vigor. Make my exercising, training a priority and losing weight. Make a plan of 4-5 days of exercise with biking and running, and get 300 calories burned everyday. Thank for my reasoning, thank you for Mary and thank you for live and love and the blessing of liberty that I have. Thank you for joy and thank you for my perspective on the universe and help me to make it strong and make it mine and make it who I am. Add surety to my life of who I am and what the universe is for me. Thank you for love and sex and cunts and cocks and joy and sorrow and being and loving and living and dying and rising and sharing and desiring and loving and thank you for the passion and may I have passion about what is important to me. My anxieties must be about something that pushes me to protect myself to protect something I think inside is important that really doesn't matter. So little matters. Do I need to find that which is important so I can let go of it. Can we find something, go on a journey? I think I was able to ignore it for some years but now there is fear and that is making me regress. Maybe counseling would be good. I don't know yet. Thank you Lord for my life I am glad to be here. There is some feeling of drudgery about it but I can try to release it all. Everything is okay. Everything will be okay. There is nothing of too import, but the universe will go on as it is because that is the way it is the way you made it. Thank you Lord for pause and push and play and stop and record and rewind and fast forward. Amen.

Another day, trying to get my discipline going. It helps with the mental health, the physical health, the relationship health. Thank you Lord for another beautiful day. Hopefully I can get out and run, no, there is no reason I can't. Look at the calendar and see if a ride is good for tomorrow. 6 miles run today, 12 mile bike tomorrow, 6 mile run Saturday, long ride tbd Sunday, short run Monday, rest Tuesday.  We'll see. I think the weather is looking alright. This morning, go eat, then do stretches. Thank you Lord for the gift of love in our hearts. May we find a way to let it shine through all the coping mechanisms we have placed in our souls to protect us from the pains we have suffered throughout our lives, from the fears and the abuses and the hatred. May we peel back the blocks and let the love shine through to value everyone and let everyone know they are valuable. Thank you Lord for love and life and liberty and amen to us all. Thank you for justice and peace and may we all understand the well-being of everyone else raises our own well-being and happiness. May we all see that the more people that are happy, the more each of will be happy. Thank you for woods and streams and being and cunts and cocks and love and passion and pleasure. Thank you for the wisdom to measure pleasure to bring joy and ecstasy into us. Amen.

Another beautiful day. Woke up for good at 8:00.  When to bed about 10:45, so that was a good sleep. Looks dull and dreary outside. I'll be doing a ride downstairs and then maybe a medium run tomorrow, Thursday. Maybe another medium run on Saturday, a long ride on Sunday, then a short Monday, rest Tuesday and the 12 mile ride with hills Wednesday, long run on Thursday, rest Friday and start again.  When swimming comes, I'll have to readjust.  We'll see. I think this plan can get me through the season.  We'll see. Amen. Thanks Lord for love and peace and life and friends and family. May we all survive as the universe unfolds and have lives in harmony with that unfolding. So, it isn't so much about survival. Well, I can hope for survival, but not insist on it being the way it is supposed to be. We live our best to give ourselves the best chance of survival and maybe even go down fighting. But, not lamenting, well, I'm not sure. It's hard to distinguish between being in harmony and giving up, between fighting for what's possible and refusing to accept the way the universe is. That is part of the human experience. And faith is fighting when we don't know. That is hard. Thank you Lord for my mind. Amen.

Thank you Lord for joy and love and peace and harmony. May I embrace them live them to the fullest extent possible each day in the darkness towards dawn in the darkness falling dusk. Thank you for my life and all that it is and let my words flow as the will until the end of time hopefully find truth and love and joy and peace and hunger and satiation and cunts and cocks and penises and vaginas to my delights content and love Mary in all her glory as a joy in my life that makes it worth living and tolerable bringing it joy and love and satisfaction as Deb would say is important to us not the satisfaction, but belonging. Belonging is important it brings a sense of validation that we are what we are supposed to be the we are the way that we are supposed to be. May I go on being in love with Mary and her in love with me that we may support and nurture one another's happiness. May I let go of what I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to do and follow what is important to me and my desires do the things the reach those instead of the the minutia at the bottom of what is supposed to be. Thank you for our reasons and our minds and our penises and all that we are. May we go with what you have made us and find happiness and love and joy among one another. Thank you for peace and creation and may we weave those things from the fabric of the universe and the fabric of our souls. Thank you for love and loose and tight and hate and may we make the most happiness the best happiness for one another until the end of time and the end of hate and lift one another up into the ecstasies of love for which you created us. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another beautiful day. May we weather the current challenge in our world, everyone and come out stronger than we were. There is unfortune in the saddness and death and suffering that will occur. Is there a plan of this? I don't know. It is the nature of life on our planet. At some level, no matter what happens the universe will go on. I don't want to say as it is meant to. It will go on as it is. It is what it is and we are part of the cycle of all that happens. May Mary and I and Jeremiah and Sadie and Della, John, Poe, all my cousins and family and Sadie's family suffer minimally and may our family the whole human race and life on this planet continue. It will all be as it is. Amen. And as I type and feel and hurt and love and have joy and have Mary and have wonderful joy with Mary. Thank you for her in my life Lord to share joys and sorrows and challenges and tribulations and challenges and may we keep our love for one another making our mutual happiness the priorities of our live. I think loving everyone is the best course of action meaning desiring mutual happiness among everyone, however, with Mary our mutual happiness is the highest priority of love because we have developed trust in one another that we love one another. Did we love one another from the beginning. Maybe in an intellectual sense in that we had a commitment for one another's happiness from the beginning. Amen.

We are all part of the one same beautiful family. Thank you Lord for the darkness and the light in our beings. May we shine through our darkness the love with which were created at the center of our being in our souls to flow forth from our spirit to touch one another and bathe us with happiness in our lives as we go in and out of darkness and learn that the light is always there. Thank you for love and sex and cunts and cocks and the passion of sharing one another with each other for those we truly desire happiness so much that we give ourselves to one another. It is dark outside and light inside and may the day come for a good running day to go 13 miles. It will be fine it will be early in the day, well, starting before noon at least and that will be good. Thank you Lord for love and light and laughter and looloos and joy and happiness and one another and we will get through this.  What does prayer do. It let's one another know we care about each other. Do we expect action from God on behalf of our prays, do we surmise we will change what God does, do we think we can influence God from his chose path of what he thinks is best? What is the purpose and what do we expect to come from it? Are we trying to communicate to God what we desire when he already knows we desire it? Is his response conditional on the action of us asking for what we want? That all makes know sense. I can feel it makes me feel good to pray and maybe it makes you feel good to know that I am praying for you, but what is the realistic expectation of God in the act of praying. Thanks. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another beautiful day. Up late today and it is a cloudy day. I meant to look at the forecast for the week. Maybe I'll remember after this. I don't think it's going to matter much oh yeah I've the bricks. One I think for tomorrow in the afternoon. Thank you for life love liberty happiness. May we find health and weather this storm. May the minimum number of people day, but it is going to happen. Thank you for love and thank you for Mary and Jeremiah and Sadie and mom and dad and Della and John and Poe and all my family and my friends and Deb and Tom and Melissa and all others and our neighbors and may Kayla be safe and all kids in school be safe. Thank you for love and my aches and pains and may my run today be fine. Thank you Jesus and Lazarus and all who have come before me to teach me love and may I me immortal with love in all those I touch. Amen and thank you and may we have and find peace and have joy and ecstasy in your wonderful gift of love. Thank you and bless you and may we be blessed and bless one another and realize we are all part of the same one beautiful family. May we find peace and consolation in one another and may we have the blessing of you and be baptized in your love and baptized one another in your love. May we be bearers of your love and may that be our callings so we may all find peace and happiness as we are meant to have and experience. Thank you for joy and life and living and may we find it and uncover it and let it shine forth from the center of our souls and be expressed in our spirits and shine upon one another. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another beautiful day now starting dark after daylight saving time.  Soon, it will become bright and I'll be able to meditate in reflection in my workout first thing or close to first thing in the morning until we all become one in beauty and our own reflections and gather as birds in song and sight and sound and stage and dancing and prancing and vixening and so on and so forth until the end of time starting again at the beginning to rejoice and refresh in the ecstasy of the love you have bestowed upon us in our creation our wonderful creating of bums and cars and burns and songs and sights and sounds and beings and love and cunts and cocks and burnings and lynchings and mobbings and beings and lovings and cherishings and seeing the wonder in all of us that is the love you created and implanted in us and with being and love and the desire to share the wonderfulness of love and may we see that and realize where the greatest joys come in life is not self-protection but in self-expression of manifesting who we are of the universe our own reflection of the universe our on existence of the who universe in each of our individual beings. May we see that we are such manifestations and realize how special each and everyone of us are in are uniqueness each of us is an individual wonderful piece of art a wonderful expression in who we are how we are and behave. Thank you for making each of us a wonderful gem and may we shine through the grime on our souls that comes from trying to cope and protect ourselves from the things that hurt us and the things we fear.  Fear is the mindkiller fear is the soul killer. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another beautiful day dark outside with shining light to come. May I find rejoice in all that I do and all that I see from beginning to end from v to c from c to p oh well let the flow flow is it will flow down the scape and up the sky is scape a word skate is a word and words are words that express ourselves to one another in the day of the day and the day of living and all our lives from our first words to our dying breaths. May we find consolation and wonderment in our lives and learn to love to find happiness and spread happiness and enrich our own happiness. Thank you more and more to the end of life from the beginning of time in all our glory through your creation of us. In the end we our reflections of you and multitudes of manifestations of the entire universe. Every creation of everything is a manifestation of the universe from the most basic fundamental fabric and nature of what it is. We have our own perspectives creating unique universes within us where our soul and inner being resides. Thank you for our souls and our spirits which become our own manifestation in the universe that every sees and that impacts all I come in contact with and engage with. Amen and we will find happiness and joy in our souls and through our spirits. Thank you Lord for all that I am and will be and have ever been extensions and foundations of all those who have come before and will come after me. Thank you Lord for love and life and genius and all that is. Thank for love and life and genius and records and albums and cassettes. Amen.

Today is another beautiful day to be alive. Thank you Lord for all that is for all in our hearts and minds and bodies and sex organs and new things and old things and blue things and memories of our experiences from sadness to joys and elations and churches and spires and spindles and spinsters and spanning bridges and burning them down and  going forward and living in the past to our own delight and detriments and lovelies and longiness and joys and sorrows and being together and being apart and just being as one spanning our universe and living and loving and sexing and joying and living and growing and being apart of one another to create a beautiful interconnected being and loving and joying together to lift one another up and tears us down at our own discretion according to what we see is in our own best interest when in reality raising one another up is the only thing that is in our own individual best interest. To tear down another is to tear down ourselves to diminish ourselves and to tear down the love that is innate in us and destroy it to make us dark and instruments of destruction, destruction of others and creating a cycle that destroys humanity, the humanity within and the humanity at large. Amen Lord to your love and to your passion and may we experience that love and passion which comes from the heart which comes from your being and is the essence of our being at the center of our soul if we let it shine forth and become a beacon for light for ourselves and for all and together we can all illuminate the whole universe and become a beautiful place for us to exist. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another beautiful day to be seeing the darkness outside. Thank you for love and life and beauty and the wonderful time to be here. May I bring joy to all and happiness to some. May I be a sign of live may I be limited in my judgement. All this to sow joy and happiness to come back to me. The well-being of all is the well-being for me. The more we can enrich one another and raise one another up, the more we will have and find happiness in our lives. Thank you Lord for the lesson in being non-judgmental. May I follow it best I can though I know that I fall and don't live up to the ideal. I am fragile and there's another f word there I think but that is okay. Let me mind flow where it will in words and thoughts and images and bodies and falling and flowing and rising and being me and being you and being everyone and being the universe full of love and hate and fear and cunts and cocks and beings and penises and vaginas and all the taboo things because taboo is a cultural construct just like all our ideas and thoughts and all that really is is the bodies we live in and the love implanted in our hearts at the time of our creation.  Everything else evolves and becomes artificial constructs we think help us to survive and live and be and have life easier with less suffering and more happiness. May we see what is is really quite simple and we create complications to make it seem more holy and right and give us prescriptions for how we are supposed to be. Amen.

Thank you Lord for the bright sun coming up today and for the warming weather to make it easier to train. Thank you for live love the pursuit of happiness and love for all for one another in the heavens and in the hells that we find ourselves on this Earth and may we be able to see your joy and love within us and allow it to shine through the layers of our coping protections to increase harmony and thus happiness among us. Thank you for life and love and Emily and Suzi and Kathyrn and Tom and Suzi again? and Melani and Maureen and everyone in my life for making it a rich and wonderful experience with which you have blessed me O Lord today and everyday of my life from the end of time to the beginning of time throughout the whole existence of this universe which is my existence as I am just a manifestation of the what the universe in my own limited unique place and time and I become an expression of the universe, a beautiful expression which is wonderful among all people and all existences until the end of time and up and down and all around and the things I'm not supposed to be and not supposed to be holding back in these words but am as an artificial action to be able to appropriately share it even though it is stifling the spontaneous flow of thoughts this is meant to be. Thank you lord for friends and family Mary and Jeremiah and Sadie and Mom and Dad and Tio John and Della and Poe and Richard and Eddie and Charlie and Grandma and Serapio and Tia Rosa and all the wonderful people in my life and Deb and Melissa and Tom and back to Mary who as been my love for going on 40 years. Amen.