A bright sun shiny brisk windy day. Thank you Lord for sensations and feelings and love and sex and honor and rolls and brims and stone and grims and love and life and being and swords and sex and blood and murder and love and passion and Mary and harmony and being together as one connected being across the universe dripping and in ponds and making waves and sundaes and chocolate and ice cream and cream and fluids and seminal and love and vaginas and penises and rubbing and stoking and building passion and unity shared in love and craziness and trust and bewilderment and rising and falling and giving and taking and loving and sharing and being one together in the night in the day in the morning in the wind howling against the house and the hail on the ceiling and hailing all that is and bewildering in the love and amazement of it all until the end of time when all humanity has vanquished from this experiment of God to share his passions and joys and ecstasies that come from living love and may we all learn of the living love within us being able to shed the boundaries and covers that hide the that which is truly us on the inside and let go of our fears to know that they are futile and let us see that paths and ways of knowing we are all one and being in one another and loving and living inside one another until time is ceaseless and no more in our being and threading to one another in the depth and darkness of space and time and wondering of where it will all end and where it will all go circling like a snake down a drain into more and wonderful new existences for more wonderment in our souls. Amen.

Good morning Lord and life goes on and on and on as the bell rings loud and clear and high and low until the end of time as the trash men, people come by and that is all life is about until we end our lives in our decay and our mountings and pleasures and scorns and scone and being with one another to find love and peace and markets for tortillas and love and kindness to lift one another up until we find time of peace and harmony and being one with another and the universe and the trucks and the sun where are you sun today and where will the rain be as I go for a run keeping up with my plan and getting stronger and more confident and to spurn my motivation to keep going the ironman is in doubt but the I can do the halvers. Thank you lord for peace and exercise and the ability to exercise to keep myself fit and healthy. I need to get Mary to a doctor to be doing the things she needs to do to be as healthy as she can be. Thank you Lord for my love for Mary's love and the love of the world. May we all love one another together and find peace together. May we let go of the steadfast perceptions that we have been taught that block love that foment hate. Let us rise above our fears. We may still have them but may we people to not let them block our love block our sight of love and peace. May we overcome anger and fill ourselves with the desires for peace and love. Thank you Lord for Jesus and Mary, my Mary, Jeremiah, Sadie, mom, dad, Della, Deb, John, Poe and all my family and Melissa and Tom, and Andy and Becky and Eddie and Richard, and Charlie. Thanks be to God and thanks be to us and may we find peace and love to live in. Amen.

Thank you Lord for all that you have given me and all of us. May we be able to make the most and learn to love because that is where the most joy comes from. Learn to be happy with the way the universe is and feel free to make changes consistent with love and our well-being. Well-being is something I've not had in my words. What is well-being I don't know that takes paused thought and we need to just keep going and let the words flow let the thoughts come as they will and all will be good and fine and wonderful marvelous and maisel and joel and wicked and truth and misery and company and chorus and being and living smelling and going and coming and cumming and going and loving and being and holding and digesting and feeling and fucking and being and willing and sucking and falling and being sucked and being pushed and down and up and all and sunny and woods and forest and furry and animals and joy and juice and calming and coming and going and up and down and hills and hiking and being and loving and joyous and boistrous and how the hell to yo spell boistruous  I don't know the blogger rejects both my attempts. Thank you lord for being and pushing and raising and falling and upping and going around and around the sun and on the earth and in life the constant circle ever changing and always the same we are all the same deep down inside and how do I know that. I presume we all have feeling and react to them and see the world through our own eyes for ourselves until the end of time our time all time everyone's time in our whole single beautiful family. Amen.

Go. The sun is up bright and shining. It's coming up earlier and earlier. Can't way for it to get warmer early to go outside. Thank you Lord for the outside for the bugs and Junes and Julys? Okay. That's weird and Deb is going to Norleans. It puts bug in me. Couldn't do cats and not this? Frustrating I guess. I don't want to be a slave to her schedule and I have some anxiety going by myself. And some in me worries about her being disappointed. But, she is a big girl and she knows it too. It'll all be fine for me to go. I see if I can get Mary to go with me. She didn't say no or necessarily seem adverse to it. Now, don't analyze and just go with the thoughts and bugs and Junes and cunts and sweats and big tits and my mind going with no filter is what it should do and I shouldn't be judgemental about my self. All is fine and what really matters is how I impact the world around me the people I touch and that is okay. Just like my rule of doing something wrong 15 times before getting it right, I can have 15 thoughts before getting to one that is acceptable to act on.  All thoughts are fine and acceptable. It is the actions that result from them thought are subject to judgement. Thank you Lord for out minds and our bodies and our religions? Well maybe. Again it's not the thoughts that count, but the actions the result from them. Amen.

Thank you Lord for a new beautiful day with the Sun rising big and bright as I'm up much later because I stayed up so late. Amen. I'm taking days and time and things more as I want to as I go and less as I should to hold up an ideal plan. I've been loose with exercise, looser than I really want and will get back into it, but letting go of clarinet and maybe just loosening it is helping. And letting go some on my diet. It all goes some with making myself less judgmental or guilty in coping with my grief. Now that the anniversary is passing things will get better until next year. Then hopefully next year won't be as hard as this year. Thank you for peace and love and liberty and happiness. Thank you for our goals and goals and love and life and liberty and all that goes with it and may we help to find happiness for others so we can all lift one another up. Thank you Lord for life and all that is and the joy and happiness and ecstasy that comes with it. May I change and evolve my mind to be more outward valuing of the needs of all of us together. We are one part of the same beautiful family. It is wonderful and delightful and sanguine, really, I'l have to see what that means. It feels like it goes there but I don't really know. So many words I don't know and read and feel but can say really what they mean. It is such diversity and beauty and may we all bind together for the benefit of Mr. Kite and all of us together. Yes, we are one and we are beautiful.  I am me and I am beautiful. I am diverse and  different from anyone else. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another existence today and the beautiful sun coming up over the horizon through the trees with the birds chirping. May I greet everyone I meet today with joy for their wonderful being. Thank you for the chance to live and may my fingers keep typing until the end of 5 minutes and keep moving like scales on my clarinet. Maybe I'll play some today or on the weekend for fun and see how much if any I have degraded and we'll learn something at the sometime.  Thank you for friends and family and may the March trip be good to share time with them. Amen and maybe it'll be warm enough for the pool. Who knows. What a weird dream that I'm not sure I even want to write down because of the perversity if that's the right word for it. It was nothing I chose to do and I'm not sure why it happened why did my brain choose to portray that. Oh, well. It was strange indeed. And I love Mary and Jeremiah and Sadie and mom and dad and Della and Della and Po and Serapio and all my family. Thank you Lord for creating me in their midsts. Amen to al that is and may I grow in harmony with the way things are and know what I can change and make better and what is that is what it is. Amen. Thank you lord for life liberty and the opportunities for happiness and guiding me to understand what happiness really means to me in my universe. It is all wonderful and the more I can grow in harmony, the more I will have happiness and the more I can extend my happiness to others. Amen and thank you Lord. It is wonderful and good and full of joy when I can be in harmony with the universe around me. Amen.

Thank you Lord for all that we are and all that we have been and all that we will be through your creation and vision of what your purpose is in creating us.  In my universe, it is for love, to share the experiences of joy and ecstasy that come from sharing love and loving others helping them to be able to find a path that allows them to love and experience the joy and happiness.  That is how to find joy and happiness myself.  Thank you for that opportunity and that joy. It seems when we put up barriers it is short term alleviation of pain and means of protecting us from pain and suffering. We become blind to what we can really experience and have. That is hard but that is the ultimate Way of being for perfect, well not perfect, or it is the ultimate Way of coming closer to experience perfect happiness. That happiness is maybe an absolute thing. We can find a way of experience that happiness. Not absolute in terms of ultimate, but absolute in terms of a concrete definition. May I think more about what I do isn't just kindness and compassion, but it is through kindness and compassion that I can help enable others to be relieved from the pain and the suffering that blocks them from being loving and maybe open their hearts to kindness and compassion for others that leads to more love.   I like that. Be kind and compassionate to enable others to be kind and compassionate. Love to enable others to love. Amen. That will be beautiful.

Thank you Lord for another beautiful day in the neighborhood may everyone find beauty in their days. May we bind with one another may we shoot down planes and shoot up fun and glorify in one another's wondrous deeds and wonder counselors and wonder of it all, the love we have been given the shoes we wear the ties we tie and the glorifying fun we have in one another. May we rejoice in the love and rejoice in you creating us and rejoice at our being and the universe and one another and find our flings and our dreams in one another in our interactions our relationships. Thank you Jesus for the Word of love. Love love love all you need is love in the kingdom that is here and now and wonderful in our eyes we just need to remove the blinders that we put there to cope and survive the pains that are misbegottenly put upon us. Thank you for insight and sight when are able to see to pull them down are remove their layers. Thank you God help me to see that we are all part of the same beautiful family and have the same ancestry and the same descendants that we are all beautiful, a beautiful network of being dependent on one another in our existence that we have one another within ourselves and in each other. Thank you for the vast being we are. Thank you for the privilege, the opportunity to live life and be created with love within us as a fundamental aspect of what our being is. Thank you for the joy and the ecstasy that is there within us to be released as we grow to be more loving, well, not more loving, but to shed as we are able our blinders. Amen.

Start, hi Lord, I meditated yesterday and slept better.  Not yet as well as I'd like, but better and here's for hope tonight will be better. Thank you for peace and love and may I embrace those I meet with joy for their wonderful being. Thank you for life and love and the ecstasy that comes with it. Thank you for creating us to be beings of love and may we share that with one another to strengthen it and bring more joy and honor and wonder and ecstasy to all of us, all of our one beautiful family. Thank you for the joy for the honor thank you for the moon and the sun and the stars and comets and dust and planets and all the moons and galaxies and clusters and background radiation. Thank you for the joy that comes with it all. May we lift one another up and share that we are all worthy of love. Thank you for the joy and peace and may we be together to help one another especially those that are down and lost, I hate that word. That have been deprived of a perspective that allows them to love. Or have lost their perspective that allows them to love or to have been denied that perspective or have never been shown that perspective or have not been able to appreciate that perspective or have been blinded to that perspective. May we all share a perspective of love with one another. Thank you Lord. Thank you Lord. We have divided ourselves up in to tribes and clans that separate us and which we have come to value more than the individual. Maybe it's for protection. We decide who is worthy to share protection with.

Thank you Lord for the beautiful sunshine this morning and may it flow from all our hearts into a universe of our own making beautiful and wonderful and diverse in all our different beings because we are beautiful because we are unique. You made us all to be different and we can never lose the cherished value of ourselves because we are unique and have an experience and existence like no on else has ever had. It brings richness to the universe and we all bring that beauty. Thank you lord for having all kinds of different people in my life for making everybody in my life different. Thank you for that most cherishable of all gifts to make my life so rich filled with wonderful, beautiful people. Thank you for that wonderfulness and may I always cherish the gift and be aware and understand the value and always protect it by never losing the awareness. Thank you all my friends and loved ones and enemies and those I do not know for bringing such richness and diversity into my life. Thank you and may you cherish your gift of uniqueness and the gift God has given you to have unique and wonderful and beautiful people in your lives as well. Thank you Lord and may I desire to know and understand others to learn what makes them special and unique and beautiful and wonderful. Thank you for the sunshine, the moonshine, the earth shine for all the shining in all our hearts pouring out your love and you beautiful and the wonderfulness and joy of love. Amen.

Hi Lord, my I find peace in your joy and the joy you wish to share with all your creation. Amen. As the sun rises, it is a brand new day and may I find joy in it and pick up my training for my physical and emotional health. Only the future knows what it will bring. Amen and thank you for peace and love and Mary and Jeremiah and Sadie and mom and dad and the blessings of all my family and all my friends until the end of time the end of eternity until the flash of it all dies in a dying ember of glowing read and peace and function and x and y and z and Hamilton and all that brings us peace and brings us together in harmony to heal our sufferings and nurture our happiness. Thank you for joy and the pleasure of peace and food and drink and one another's presence and presents and gifts and Christmas and Easter and July and the fall with the leaves falling in the promise of a new birth to come in Spring and down the ocean and up the sky and all around in our experiences in one another's arms and down on the sea and the bed and the love and the touch and the softness and the pleasure in our arms and the satisfaction in the security we can find in trusting one another. By we not be blinded by trust and always see the path within us to understand the light we are created with and pray not to cover it up with coping with the injuries and fears that are laid upon us. May we find peace in our being and know the universe to be beautiful and not intentionally injurious and in love and peace and happiness and satisfaction in joy and ecstasy in sharing.

What about love, what about joy. We are one universe we are one people we are one being we are one choice in this body of ours created by God our loving being father mother sister brother uncle aunt grandmother. I dreamed I hadn't see grandma in a long time and when I came got back she could speak english very well.  What does that mean?  And then the dream didn't go any much more that I can remember. Wow, that was interesting. Thank you Lord, Thank you God for rain and love and sunshine and hatred and judgement and all that our universe is. Amen to it all and may we learn to live in love with one another thank you for God for love for one another for leaves and trees and things and bees and badgers and leaves on the ground and tree trunks through the  forest and bob cats and green moss and julie bugs and ants and critters and all the things in the forest and bob cats and panthers and bears and lions and tigers oh my and yellow brick roads and dorothy and hanging men and jungles and bears and skies and poppies and love and juice and juju beans and falls and inspirations and love and one another and jugs and beers and wine and shine and Mary mother of Jeremiah and all we are together as a family coming from mom and dad and della and kisko and sherrel and joe and susan and becky and melissa and deb and della and john and rosemary and poe and eddie and john e and jacob and shelly and monica and larry and luke and lawson and cristina and does jacob have another and charlie and richard and tina and phil and charlie's kids. Amen.

Thank you Lord for another life every day and Deb's support and Mary's love and partnership. She's not so good at emotional support, but she love's me and wants me to be happy. I think she gets frustrated when she can't help me. That's okay. I love her and she is my life we'll always be there for one another.  Thank you Lord, I love you. Thank you for the gift of love and me we be happy and may we spread happiness throughout the land to boast and beast and baste and be baneful and wander and wonder at the wonder and beauty of it all. May I spread love and happiness and joy and may we all find harmony in one another. There is so much more awareness. Is it all really growing pains that we are finding more enlightenment and it has growing pains? I think that is positive. We'll get everyone to move along. Thank you Lord, Thank You Thank You Thank You. And the beat goes on and the beat goes on thank you lord. We came from a time when things were the way they were and that's how they were and I think the way things were were roles that everyone was supposed to be in because of who they were and that we are slowly breaking out of that in society at large. There have always been those who looked past roles, but I think that we are more and more at large beginning to look past that and it has its growing pains for those who are still tied in the thoughts and practices and culture and customs of their pasts. We should have the roles we choose. Amen.

Thank you Lord for life love liberty and the world and all the uniquenesses that make it a rich, diverse place to be to have experiences that fulfill and give wonder and amazement and chickens and rice and beer (yuck) and love and liberty and more chickens and beef and cows and dirt and slugs and worms and water and ocean and swimming and bees and B's and Beas and loving peas and squash and tennis and love and match and baseball and pings and pongs and subs and sandwiches and bread and beaches and sand and grass and waves and turtles and Mary and more pongs and beaches and love and sky and clouds and rain and snow and beaches and passing and darkness and light and peas and bulbs and tulips and two lips and Mary and love and sex and beaches and shots and pings and guns??????? and pounds and ounces and bounces and beaches and slides and sex and cocks in cunts and beautiful smooth silky interiors of women and nice and sliding and sharing the love the pleasure with one I love and experiencing it together with pleasure and touching and pulling and pushing and slapping and inching and pulling and being together in ecstasy and hounds and hollers and holes and hunches and Seussical and watches and clocks and sunny days and witches and warlocks and all the is dark and angels and piouses and all that is light together making one beautiful universe for all to have and all to share and to love one another to bring one another joys and ecstasies and passions and plays and all we are together until the end of time from the beginning of time until no more and we are all together in the end as one loving being.

Another day with lift in my spirit. I meditated yesterday had a good day exercising and accomplished a lot throughout the day. I slept well. Yeah. All is good and I have spiritual ideas flowing to share. Yeah. Thank you Lord for my mind my body my soul my spirit my Mary my sexuality for love for happiness for one another for the joy in our hearts and souls and spirits. May my life live the purpose for which you create me to experience the joys and ecstasies of living a life of life to be the embodiment of what you wish to share. It is only through love that we can experience it only through love that we can rise above the sufferings impose upon us and only through love we can rid ourselves of our spiritual suffering to live in harmony with the universe, the serenity prayer. Thank you lord for all we are and all you have made us and may we seek the darkness seek the light seek one another and seek the peace and joy and the ecstasy of your love. Thank you for the promise of that harmony in our souls and may we seek it out and be the love you created us to be. Thank you for our creation for the opportunity to live your purpose and may we all see the purpose and find harmony in one another. I love you and I love Mary and Jeremiah and Sadie and mom and dad and everyone I encounter. Amen.

Today is another beautiful day. It is gray outside. I've got my list together to do the things I want to do daily for my own good and welfare and being. Thank you Lord for my mind my ability to reason and decide what is best for myself and part of what is best for myself is the welfare and well-being of humanity and our planet and the diversity we all have in our creation to make a beautiful universe bestowed upon us by your great will and vision for our happiness that you wish to share and the experience and joy of love and the ecstasy. You wish to share the experience of love. Thank you for creating us to be the instrument of that sharing. Love is wish for the well-being and happiness of all including ourselves. That is the message that is the word of Christ. Thank you. That is our purpose I see in my universe or at least the purpose in my universe that I was created for you to share the joyful and ecstatic experience of love and that love is the desire for mutual happiness with all others. Thank you Lord. And, happiness ultimately is being at peace and in harmony with the universe and the universe is what we perceive. Finding concurrence and consistency between what we perceive and how we believe things should be is happiness. The serenity prayer says it best basically. I like my version, my variation, but I need to go review that. Amen.